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Dammit! (WARNING!: This post is all over the place)

Dammit!  (As a note this is only going to be a personal post, nothing to do with qR, RazorIRC or anything else.)

So I saw her the other day, we went to see and movie, she obviously doesn’t realize I was/am pissed off at her…

Anyways here’s what lead up to this.  I’ve been helping the potential girlfriend look for a job since shes fairly new to the country (she be Latin-American :D ) anyways I was thinking since the *erm* old girl is the assistant manager where she works I could try seeing if there’s anything there.  The only problem with the was I stopped talking to her in February…  All I could think about the past week was trying to “fix” the friendship.

Well turns out I have no fixing to do still now that’s not to say there wont be in the future when I run into that bastard she calls a boyfriend, I know I’ll have to fix the friendship then.  Anyways there’s nothing there, but the longer we all hung out the more the pain grew, I’m surprised that I didn’t snap at one point.  She has no clue the pain I’ve gone through to try and be with her.

I’ve given up on her but she still manages to cause me pain, it could be because I also considered her to be a closer friend then my best friend, and now I can’t trust her…

I’m probably a fool for wanting this but I want to be able to trust her again.

Anyways onto some more positive postings!

The one I’ve trying to get a job and going after, the Columbine girl, well the search for a job for her isn’t going well…

And recently my options for a girlfriend have opened slightly more, I met a girl the other night at a restaurant, shes a waitress there.. actually it was a stunt that my best friend pulled that kinda got that to happen, only problem is I didn’t get her number, I may go back this weekend but Iunno, she is real nice.

Now heres the problem I’m gonna have, the Columbine girl I have already opened up to, she’s the first person in a long time that I managed to do that to, I always have this sort of armor there the prevents me from opening up to anyone…

2010
05/17
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Cause I care…

No really I do :P

<!—[INSERT LONG SPEAL ABOUT NOT POSTING FOR SO LONG]—>

Now that that’s out of the way, on to the busy-ness of this postage :P

RazorIRC,
Yes I’m still working on it, no it’s not coming this year.  The website is though.

quantumRadio,
It’s changing… for the better….

The rest,
dunno whacha talking bout son’

Okay, okay that wasn’t the real information for each… gees…

quantumRadio is being put on the backburner while I figure out the focus of the site as a whole… The current model isn’t working…  I’m also going to be networking all my sites in a certain way, this is way qR is being put on hold, because qR is the one this going to majorly benefit for this change, the RazorIRC website is going to be an exception, it’s not going to use this (for obvious reasons) but will use something similar for the backend.

RazorIRC’s going to be lunched next year, possibly by September (the product not the website), I’ve finally started figuring out how the update system is going to work (best thing is it’s an open system!).  By the end of December I plan on having what will be the full blown RazorIRC website up and running, complete with add-on’s database (although it will be disabled :P ).

Life!
Life’s good for the most part, had a mild panic attack at work today, all day long… dunno what triggered it… might be something to do with her (Oh no I didn’t!).. Oh yea, I’ve decided to wait when it comes to her I’ll wait till she’s finished school and if she does decide to move down unda, then I guess I’m moving too.

 

Anyways guess thats enough of an update :P

2009
11/26
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